And so it begins...

The official beginning of this course for me was receiving my unconditional placement email. I was sat on the train on my own and thought I was going to explode with excitement. Then came fear, anticipation and self doubt. I felt so in the dark as to what was expected of me, I knew I had the qualifications and experience to get on the course but would I be able to perform?

This conquered up feelings of my first college performance 'Confined'. We were set on stage before the audience had entered, crouched down in a large circle with a large singular piece of black cloth covering us all, it was dark in the theatre with lots of dry ice. This set a feeling of anticipation and the unknown for the audience. As performers we didn't know how long we would have to wait until our first cue, on a more personal level we couldn't peek at the audience to be at ease seeing where our family and friends might be sat. It was a real test of patience and nerves, however the minute the music began we emerged singularly, strong, confident and ready to perform.

My energetic beginning was the few days between the introduction Skype call and my first 1-2-1. I felt like I had the information required to get cracking and with the clarification from Adesola that my study plan and ideas sounded on the right track, I have started gaining some momentum. However between my daily journal, the tasks I have set myself such as getting my blog going and deciding where to start with the reading lists, plus the suggested reflection/blog activities in the hand book I feel like its all my head and can't quite yet grab it and get it down on paper. 

I can liken this to one of my newest teaching appointments. A KS1 Musical Theatre class, 15 children who have only known me for a week who are not quite sure of my ambitious vision for The Greatest Showman - A Million Dreams. That first class was tough trying it keep them motivated while giving them individual directions and trying to be fun at the same time. Reassuring them that at the moment it may not all make sense to them but with practice it will be great. Once all the pieces (the children) are in the right place and have confidence in the new steps they have learnt, the final picture will come together.

I am hoping the effective beginning comes once I start to draft my essay. I would love to have an 'Eureka' moment but I think it is only going to come together with time, research and commitment. Not unlike the path I took to become a professional dancer. Gaining knowledge, honing my technique, putting in the hours and simply living everyday with thoughts of dance in my head. Be it choreographing to songs on the car radio (in my head of course) practising ballet behind my work reception desk or simply lying in bed awake for an extra 10 mins processing my learning from that day. 

So like that little girl who couldn't wait to put on her leotard for her first dance class, I am ready with excitement and anticipation to make every moment count.